For Tommee

For so many years I was alone and honestly convinced myself that I would be alone forever...

When I met you it was like getting smacked in the face by a hundred different cliches. I remember saying to myself things like, "He can’t be that nice", and, "He won’t stay for long".

Well, it’s been months after, and I still sometimes think of those things. The only difference is that with each day they become more valid. In return, we have become two people closer than before.

So far, you have been the one person in my life that I don’t have to work to impress. Your love and the empathy for me, no questions asked. To be treated this way, is the answer to so many of my prayers.

I have wondered how things will be now that plans are pushing through. I’ve wondered how they will change and how we will change along with them. In the first place, our goals were already in our plans from even before we met. Although we did discuss it but we segued it as possible as we can.

It all just sort of happened, and now it’s all there ever is.

It was the beginning, and it's not so long ago. And it seems so odd to be living our end so soon. It may or may not be. Anything can happen.

But it seems surreal to leave (or to have to be left) without you when I feel like you’re still a brand new gift to me.

I wish I could say all of this out loud. I wish I could touch your face and let all of what I feel right now run through you. I’ve never been good with speaking with you vis-a-vis, but you were always okay with that. It’s just that not being good with words doesn’t sound like a good enough excuse. Although I try to be.

I hope you’ll be able to see it in my eyes. It would take me a million years to tell you just how much I love you and how much I care for you.

It is my life’s goal to fit it all in to the next few weeks.

Thank you. You are one of the greatest thing ever happened to me.

See you soon.