From Grey Clouds to Bright Skies

A month ago, the doctor who checked up on me found two lumps on my right breast. I was devastated since the chances of traveling while earning dollars became slim.

Series of thoughts racked up my brain.
Here I go again..
What is it in me?
Why me?
What I have done to deserve all these?

In just a blink of an eye, I lost my focus.
Hello happy-go-lucky Erica!
For that entire month, I drink, partied hard, and almost detached myself from my family.
It was a happy time. Yet beneath my sheepish grin was misery.

I started to think for other options. My day was filled with series of interviews, exams and all the processes one would go through in applying for a job.

Until I finally got a call yesterday morning from UPL, the agency who handles my documents for my shipboard career..

Ms. Reggie, the person in-charge for our ship assignments, told me that I can leave anytime as long as I report to SuperCare (a diagnostic center), to get myself follow-through check-up for my breast mass the doctor found a month ago.

Devastating as it may seem, I finally worked on a little courage to face what I fear most.
I was sulking like a little girl as my steps getting closer to the center.

Then finally, I entered the doctor's office and had myself checked.

I AM CLEARED!

Finally, the dreaded day is over. After a month of drinking medicines and gone through a lot of trips to the doctor, I am on my way back to what I really want.

Sometimes, life really has its funny way of showing what is destined for you. Most often than not, when you tell yourself you want to give up, a window of opportunity comes back to you.