Cynical. That is what most people are.
In our personal relationships, we tend to listen but never absorb, we never understand. We take their word but never give the benefit. In helping others, we find flaws before giving assistance. Oftentimes, we turn our backs and dismiss it like there was nothing ever happened. In ourselves, we doubt our abilities, capacities, our gifts. We are sometimes clouded with pessimism that generates negativity in our lives...
It was only recently that I have given my utmost trust to a person I have long knew. A colleague which I had been respecting for so long. But what turned out was a complete disappointment and hatred. It was not a good thing but I had let it enter my heart, making me fastidiously restless and ungratified.
I began to believe that he can make a big difference since this person knew what I sacrificed to pursue a life-long dream. And as I have been counting the days, weeks and months, there was still nothing to compensate the things you have been doing for the betterment of myself and others.
It was then I started to cover myself with cynicism.
People really have a knack of making promises then break it. Truly talented in dashing hopes (myself included).
After ending such trivial pursuit, an old common friend has told me that disappointments are part of human err. That what is most important, is, I have been extended small efforts, gestures and favors. Something that can be made a big difference only if seeing it in another perspective.
I felt at peace now.
Besides, I have something to be grateful for... I gained new friends.
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