I got in touch with an old friend and had updates with the things that has been going on with our lives. Love has again emerged in the topic, to which I really don't have anything to say. On the other hand, I feel happy that my friend is finally going to settle down with the person she loves.
Ho-hum.
Love has become my least favorite topic but I make it a point that I give realistic opinions to people who needed my advice. I found this out through Joy, my student, who is still single at 42. Both of us had conversations of love & relationships that has come to one thing:
NONE.
After my last "real" relationship, I have been literally driving myself crazy hoping for someone to swoop me and offer a love that would last a lifetime. But after long years, I still have none.
This isn't the issue of the clock ticking on me but it made me very confused about why is it that every time I try to date someone, I always end up backing off or vice versa. I always hope for a lifelong solitude with the right person yet before it even gets to the good part, I get a sudden case of cold feet.
Is it fear? Is it remorse?
I guess I am still clouded with so much pain and anger that I have forgotten the real meaning of it.
I really don't want to talk about love. But here I am, pounding with emotions as I write this entry. I think I should get to reacquaint myself to love. But my mind is telling me to stop this nonsense and focus more on constructive ideas.
I give up.
2 comments:
Girl...nakakarelate ako sa entry mo na'to...haaay...sana man lang we were able to compare notes...bakit kasi kelangang may umalis para lang may dumating...?
"bakit kasi kelangang may umalis para lang may dumating...?"
>> Ahaha! Para sakin ba tong sinabi mo or may pinatatamaan ka? Ahihihi! Don't worry girl, we will be comparing notes as soon as nakaadjust nko with my work. Bisitahin ko kayo. :)
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