I Know...

I'd like you to know more than anything else, that I have thought of you every single day for quite some time now.. I've been fighting back to send you a message or give you a call whenever I have the urge to connect with you. I have to be honest, I am truly resisting myself off the memories of everything we've had gone through.

But it just couldn't be helped.

I have a lot of "I Know's," when it comes to you, to which some of it are:

- I know you go through your daily life without thinking of me.
- I know you feel awkward with me. Most especially the part where common friends try to tease if we're back again.
- I know that I'm the last person in the planet you'll ever look for.
- I know that you are on your own, happily living your life.
- I know you have forgotten a lot of things that we have had.
- I know that when I will try to catch your attention, you'll turn me down.

.. all of these, still hurts me more than before.


And most of all, I know that whenever I need you, you will no longer be there.

The longing is still here. And I just wish I could take everything back.
But I'm already half a decade late.

So cheers to my angst and my solitude.
And to this letter which I can never ever send.